Okay so it's been awhile...

We are still trying to get the hang of this whole schedule thing. I have never lived by a schedule in my entire life. It is a foreign concept for me. But a necessary one as we embark on the adventure called homeschooling. I spent most of December and part of January coming up with my plan. That included everything. Cleaning, cooking, homeschool, activities...everything. I am still working out the kinks and trying to banish old habits. I'm trying not to be too hard on myself because I don't want to get overwhelmed. But this crap is hard. I know people who thrive off "the schedule", and while I feel it is necessary for us, I think most of these people are insane. And can we talk about when things come up that aren't in the schedule for a second. What the freak are you suppose to do about that? I seriously will just sit and stare because it isn't in the schedule. I really truly do not know how to cope. Whereas, before the schedule, it didn't matter, because we did whatever whenever. So this foreign thing that creeps up, the "change" in my day, it's really throwing me off my game. It's kind of one of those things I try to ignore and hope it goes away. To give you an example of how ridiculous this is for me, on Sundays we will sometimes go up and spend Sunday dinner with my in-laws. Well my sister-in-law called while I was in the middle of making lunch asking if she could come pick the girls up to make cupcakes. No big deal right? Hahaha. The following really happened.
My husband asks me "so is that ok?"
Me: "yeah it's ok" (in my head...no it's not okay that wasn't part of the plan today. Eat lunch, take naps, get ready, go up eat dinner)
Husband: "are you sure that's ok? (Noticing my irritability) "when can she come get them?"
Me: "I don't know I'm making lunch" "Miss M needs a nap"
Husband: "So do you want her to take a nap here or can she take one at my moms"
Me: "I don't know, I can't think right now" (meanwhile my head is exploding because something other than "my plan" might be happening soon, trying not to freak out)
Husband: (trying to get an answer out of me so he can get his sister off the phone) "So what do you want to do"
Me: "I don't know just let me make lunch"
Husband: "She'll call you back"

I know you are all rolling your eyes and laughing at how ridiculous that is, and honestly it is ridiculous. But as I said this schedule thing is new to me, and I have never been one to do something without going full force, I'm all or nothing. So I'm working on trying to find the balance. What does that mean to me and my family? I will have to get back to you on that one as I am still trying to get passed the unexpected.

Things with school have been going ok. Definitely not what I picture every day when I wake up. I wake up with that triumphant horn playing in the background and me riding through the day on my gallant steed. Everything going according to plans of course. And ending the day with a harp making the most beautiful sounds and a muse telling me I did a great job. Yep that never happened. And never does. As soon as my feet hit the ground my day starts falling apart with my children screaming (literally) mooooooooooom! Moooooom! Maaaahmaaaaa!

We don't accomplish everything I set out to every day. There is never enough time in the day. I always feel I am falling short. But I have to remember that the goal isn't to check things off the check list. It's to have a full life. And that my friends is something I can say is checked off. I have a very full and blessed life. I have beautiful, funny, smart kids who keep me going everyday. I have a hardworking, supportive, and loving husband. All of which not everyone can say they have. So I thank my Heavenly Father for all my blessings!!! There are many.

So with that I leave you with a video I made mostly of my cute kids.

Thanks for stopping by.
Meg